Listen...to the sound of silence...

A couple of my bloggy-friends did this list and I so enjoyed the idea...I'm stealing it.

Here's a list of ten things I want to say to people I know but for whatever reason, I never will. I won't say who they are and I'll only use each person once.

1. How do you live with yourself knowing always that we know you chose that woman over us? I used to just wish you were gone from this planet. It would have been easier than knowing you weren't and just chose to live life without us.

2. I know we've been working really hard on the potty training and you've got it down except for at night but can't you just use your diaper now? It's 3 AM and I'm so tired. :-))

3. Why didn't you just pick up the phone and call me? I would have been there for you...no matter what. I am so sorry. You had such a beautiful soul. I wish it had worked with us. I know it never would have. I have your last email. I read it every now and then and wish I'd answered then.

4. Does anybody know we're still here? That we would really love to be included with the rest of you?

5. I wish I had handled that so differently. I still think about you often and wonder what would have happened.

6. Have you forgiven me? If not, will you?

7. Lets get together and laugh about when I thought you were the hottest guy in the world.

8. I just don't see it ever happening.

9. You are insane and you need help. Huge help. Someone that loves you should tell you but since nobody ever has, I will. I mean it. There is something seriously off with you. If you don't listen to any thing else for the rest of your life, listen to this: Get help. Seriously.

10. If you continue to use and end up killing yourself - inadvertently or not - I will die inside. I will go on - but I will never recover. For some reason, you stole more of my heart than most and I cannot tell you enough that your life is worth more than you know. Please, please stop. I know all the stuff - you have to want it for yourself - so please, start wanting it.

There - now I know more about myself than I did a few minutes ago. And so do you.